I was contacted about a job this morning. It’s more money than I’ve ever been offered and I can work whenever I want from the comfort of my home so I won’t have to sacrifice time with Harper. I start school in January, and this is probably the most perfect job to fit into my soon to be busy schedule. So now I get to spend a few more months soaking up all this time with Harp, and getting ready to dive back into being a student and working. Answered prayers. I’m so relieved.
Also, that guy I mentioned is now my boyfriend. It’s so weird to say that, but it’s nice to have someone so supportive around. Still it’s strange telling people I’m committed to someone.
I’m mentally, physically, spiritually, emotionally exhausted.
In the best way.
Life throws the biggest curve balls, but they just push you closer to where you’re supposed to be.
Excuse me while I cry tears of joy, because for the first time in a long time your opinion of me doesn’t matter. I don’t feel like I’m 16 anymore.
I’ll be 23 in 12 days and I finally feel my age.
It’s amazing the amount of love I am given freely on a daily basis.
I am kind of up in the air right now. Every time I want to write I hesitate, because I’ve become so extremely cautious about how I approach my writing on here. I don’t even know why.
I need to start being completely open and honest. I don’t know the majority of the people who read this so why do I care so much?
I need to use this as an outlet again.
So in case you guys need an update here’s a few:
We’ve moved in with my grandma until my mom’s paperwork for her new job is completely approved which will probably be at the end of the year. Harper is growing too fast and requires 95% of my time and attention. I couldn’t ask for a better babe. She is so loving. I signed up for so many bible studies at church on top of my own personal quiet time, and it’s completely changed my relationship with God in the most profound way. I am the happiest I’ve ever been even though I’m not where I want to be. I met a really great guy and I don’t even know what to do with that.
All those changes I kept trying to make on my own, well it turns out a little bit of prayer solved them all. I am completely at peace with what’s going on (most days) and I can only go up from here.
I really miss y’all.
“I’m not a kid anymore, obviously. I guess I learned, finally, that nothing is really that big a deal. If someone’s not dying or getting born, it’s just not that big a deal. Everything in between those two experiences should be about just enjoying life. I don’t know why it was so hard for me to figure that out, but right now it’s all about going with the flow and not taking everything so seriously.”
— Conor Oberst (via grant-me-serenity)
I can not wait to have my phone back tomorrow.
So many feels. I wish I felt more comfortable with sharing here, but I don’t.