I have no clue what changed in the past 24 hours, but everything looks more amazing from this point of view.
Reconnected with someone who has always built me up and it was exactly what I needed. I have a large heart and it always ends up with me being entirely too nice to people who really don’t give two shits about me. I’d say I won’t keep doing that, but we all know it will most likely happen again in the near future. For now though, God has lined everything up so I can see exactly what I’m dealing with.
There’s one piece of my life that’s about to change drastically, but I can’t talk about it for a little while longer. When I have all the details though I’m sure I’ll be posting way too much about it. I’m so excited for Harper and myself. I’ve been so happy lately that I cry about everything. I’m falling in love with every single piece of myself, and it’s rewarding me with love from a lot people around me. I’m really excited to have the next week to myself and Harper. I like the team we’ve made. I can read her, and she can always read me. I was worried when I quit nursing our dynamic would change, but it’s just gotten better. I always say that my favorite age is the one she is at at the moment, and it’ll probably always be that way. She’s growing and changing into the most amazing little lady. I’m pretty damn proud of how well I’m doing at the single parenting stuff. Though I have so much help from every person in my life.
When I made the decision to reevaluate my relationships again I was worried I was being too hard on those around me, but I realized when I stopped making excuses for certain people they ceased to be in my life without me having to take any real steps to exclude them.
I’m going to trust my gut from now on, and right now it’s telling me to just dive into this headfirst. So that’s what I’m gonna do.